Thursday, July 9, 2009

something completely different

On Thursdays at daily headspa we aim to do something with the weekly topic, which is "stuck." Saturdays are meant to be fun, but feeling as stuck as I do I couldn't wait to have a little fun. We posted this sketch from Monty Python about two bored airplane pilots having a go at the passengers over the intercom. The post is titled after a signature phrase from the troupe - "and now for something completely different."

Do you ever feel like doing something completely different just to get yourself unstuck?

It's what I do when I'm feeling stuck sometimes, because "stuck" in my experience is usually equal to "bored." So I bust out at the seams. If I can't untie my hands, I start working with my elbows, you know what I mean?

The worst case scenario is when I'm not in a position to bust out even just a little - I let social norms restrict my bid for unstuckness and freedom from boredom.

I've been in a workshop for two days. It wouldn't have mattered much if it had been the best workshop in the universe, me sitting in a circle of people talking for two days makes me feel my entire life is on hold and I'll never break free. How many times did I want to say the stupid thing, but held back or said something sensible "for the good of the order." Meanwhile, what about my dis-order, the feeling of holding back wild horses all the time. Sigh.

The trick is to know what is completely different and socially acceptable, or at least the consequences of which are acceptable to oneself. A life's work perhaps?

Monday, July 6, 2009

stuck in the middle with you

We're blogging about being stuck at daily headspa this week. I'm feeling so stuck, I'm stuck with nothing to say about being stuck. Except that stuck sucks.

I could think about what it takes for me to get unstuck. Some of it is so passive: something needs to happen that draws me out. But that makes me feel, well, passive. And stuck.

We played tennis again today. Movement and thinking about some one thing, like this shot and that one and the next, helps me get unstuck.

Sometimes I wish I would remember the magic of movement when I'm feeling stuck and there's a pile of dishes to be done or one thing on the to-do list that could be knocked off in a few minutes. When I'm stuck, it feels like if I do anything it won't be the right thing so I wait until I know what the right thing to do is but the stuck feeling blocks my perception. Perhaps sometimes doing something is in fact the better move.

Action-reflection-action...some kind of unstuck formula in there I think.